here i am, in the ops room. for today i'm the duty personnel for the unit. so i have to wake up early to do some cleaning up. boy m i wasted. for the past 3 nites, i din have the amount of sleep that i hope to have.

America's Next Top Model... wow. the gals din look that great in person but their 1st photo shoot, wow. they looked great!

looks like my driving has to put on hold. will continue once i've finished with my final theory test. oops. BUT i still hope i can get my license by the end of the yr.

Music of the moment - What a wonderful world (by Eva Cassidy)

this world is juz so out of control. my work place, my former work place. din already haf a gd waking up this morning. having a stiff neck now. got screamed at becoz of something my stupid clooeague did. showed him attitude becoz of the way he talks to me. so many reasons to get me out of work.

now i'm @ my former office using the com. i always do tat during lunch break. an oasis in this desert of humanity. i'm trying to keep myself occupied with issues of my own. give myself work to shut the rest of this desert away. juz keep doing work. n hope time juz flies. fly me to 9 months from now. i'll be out of here. during lunch i was tinking, when i ORD, i'm going to send an email out to showcase my displeasure working in this environment for the past 10 months. but we shall see whether it will fall thru.

midweek. i feel blessed as some frds msged me to wish that i haf a gd day since it's already midwk. sometimes pple juz haf to learn to b contented with wat GOD has given us. i'm one of those pple who needs to learn..

nowadays, blogging has been so boring. y so? i guess it's becoz life has been so boring for me. readers of my blog would know that i keep complaining about my sucky army life.

today yuet again, my chief clerk was at it again. but today there was something that made me happy for a while. she hinted that she mite leave the job. GOOD! anyway she was commenting in a annoyed way that my 2 upper studies are taking so many days off, leave that they mite not b able to teach us everything n wan us to make every opportunity to learn. but with their sloppy "workmanship", they dun even work properly. juz tat all their shit has been landed on us. some times i juz wish to tell mdm that "do u tink it's our fault that my upper studies are not doing the work correctly? it took some time for the shit to b uncovered. we haf already uncovered some shit. not enuf to uncover all the shit they haf dumped for the last 2 yrs or more."

sianz... m so freaking tired so decided to tuan a while to haf this entry.

at least i know, i should b able to finish my driving by the end of the next month. hurray!

what a wonderful world.... according to a fellow camp mate, i have finally see light in my line of work. currently, i'm understudying to be the despatch clerk next time when the current one bows out from this service he provides, which is in a month's time. what a long day but it's a long day away from work rather than staying in camp n do all the work my fellow colleague (note, i have neva used the word frd when i'm talking about him) doesnt wan to.

over the weekend, i had all the time in my hands. btu did i use it wisely? okie, i managed to finish my advance theory lessons online. one thing i've managed to complete. next thing to complete in relation to driving is my advance theory test. by the start of next month, i should b able to finish all my driving lessons and wait for my TP. one instructor actually projected that by the end of nov, i should b getting my license. hurray!! cant wait to drive but i'm sure the 1st time i'm going to b on the rd is going to b a scary event. esp if my 1st excursion with the car is to drive my parents n myself for a meal somewhere. my dad said he's juz going to sit behind n pretend to sleep so that i wont have any pressure / unnecessary comments from him.

this week, should b a short week for me since i'm the understudy for despatch and i have some medical appts (things u do to get urself out of camp), i'm happy.

grow up johnson! need to alwasy remind myself to grow up n stop fooling around. time to settle down n tink about my future. i'm still lost in respect to what i wan to b in the future. do u guys actually know? are you sure life for you would b good? able to land urself in a job u are happy with? able to get urself a job which pays well enuf to raise a family? able to find urself a job which u r happy with and pays well? i ask myself that often as i still have the chance to change my future, to decide on what courses i wan to take in uni.

one thing i really dislike is pple taking my hp away from me without asking me.

finally it's thursday!! n my mdm has gone overseas for a holiday. hurray! less nagging the next few days.

i need to plan my life. need to really start thinking of wat m i going to do. i'm a social butterfly, some pple once said. very true. i live on being socialable. i live on having a social life. till now, what i've planned: learn driving, learn canoeing, learn dancing. not even planned on wat to do in uni, wat do i really want my life to head to.

GROW UP johnson...

i'm feeling tired. tired. woke up feeling tired. attention span is damn short today. cant help myself thou.. drained of all energy. someone told me last nite. u can view life as positively as you can or negatively but you know that life goes on no matter how u see it. yes that statement totally makes sense. but being human, you cant forget all emotions n go on with life. back in sch i could juz do tat. not much stress, not forced to do things u dont really like. haha.

cant wait to organise some kopi session with my frds whom some i've met in a while...

i've yet again asked myself, how to carry on in this vocation? with a knife right in my back? well.. soon enuf i'm going to make things thru. if my colleagues say tat i'm not working. n so b it. i shant work anymore.. doing enuf to keep myself working the whole time. oh well... sianz.

sorry for all readers tat my post has become so mundane with me complaining about work every time i haf an entry. there is still hope in life i believe. i've neva given up hope. i have faith in GOD.

By the way, Da Vinci's Code is nice to read. even me, Johnson, m caught in the book. cant stop reading it. heh