Tuesday, August 31, 2004
there is hope in this world, i tell ya. in the near future, i mite b receiving some gd news about my posting. i mite b able to get back to home (or rather my 2nd home - my former army unit, or rather air force unit). hope this gd news can fall thru.
over the wkend, i was ddeeply exhausted. was suppose to haf dinner with my frds rite? in the end, postpone to this fri. it will also b a farewell for one of them. then so far, from wat i know, my pre u sem group of 16 will shrink to 13 with 3 of them overseas. mayb come next yr, it will shrink one more, me. this wkend was also suppose to attend the mass com bash, ntu at MS but it was too late for me to attend it as i was attending my JC's anniversary. oh well.. slept real late on sat nite. still went clubbin but went somewhere else. sleeping late is not gd ah. must listen to kor kor's words ah. the next day, it affected my concentration during my driving lesson. oh well... lets not talk about my wkend. tired is the main word of tat wkend.
this coming wkend, i hope i can actually take long wkend. coz i have a med appt in the afternoon of friday n would love to extend my long wkend by a few more hours.
today is only tuesday.. 3.5 more days till wkend! hurray!!
over the wkend, i was ddeeply exhausted. was suppose to haf dinner with my frds rite? in the end, postpone to this fri. it will also b a farewell for one of them. then so far, from wat i know, my pre u sem group of 16 will shrink to 13 with 3 of them overseas. mayb come next yr, it will shrink one more, me. this wkend was also suppose to attend the mass com bash, ntu at MS but it was too late for me to attend it as i was attending my JC's anniversary. oh well.. slept real late on sat nite. still went clubbin but went somewhere else. sleeping late is not gd ah. must listen to kor kor's words ah. the next day, it affected my concentration during my driving lesson. oh well... lets not talk about my wkend. tired is the main word of tat wkend.
this coming wkend, i hope i can actually take long wkend. coz i have a med appt in the afternoon of friday n would love to extend my long wkend by a few more hours.
today is only tuesday.. 3.5 more days till wkend! hurray!!
Thursday, August 26, 2004
one consolation for me, the wk is ending. n furthermore, during the end day brief, or last parade, my mdm, the chief clerk was asking who's going for long wkend. she went thru all the departments n it came to mine. she looked at my colleague n he said he will b the only one left behind. n she said ya. okie. i dun remember telling her i'm going for long wkend. okie. everyone b my witness. she said okie. heh. last time she had this rule where newly posted in personnel cant go for long wkend for the time being. ha. i'm so not going to let tat affect me. okie good. at least now i can go for my driving lesson on sat smoothly. home sweet home on fri nite! hurray!
saw singapore idol juz now. singapore really lack of talents? our only resource are our people. goodness... but that last contestant is GooD!
talking about talents. i feel very much for the athletes in athens. doesnt the 2 words haf much similarities? esp lee jia wei n ronald. in my eyes, one thing tat singapore sportmen n women haf to improve is their mental strength. let not the burden of a nation weigh down on their concentration. it's the hopes of the nation tat makes them lose all concentration. i could see it in lee jiawei's eyes in the semi finals. n even more obvious in the 3rd/4th placing playoffs. the newspaper said tat Singapore has few athletes tat we all can place hopes on. the ad about thanking those who managed to go far in the Games, is quite lame. defeating the purpose. juz makes us feel tat we were so so near n yet so far. 4 yrs away... haiz...
LONG WKEND!! HOOHOO!!
saw singapore idol juz now. singapore really lack of talents? our only resource are our people. goodness... but that last contestant is GooD!
talking about talents. i feel very much for the athletes in athens. doesnt the 2 words haf much similarities? esp lee jia wei n ronald. in my eyes, one thing tat singapore sportmen n women haf to improve is their mental strength. let not the burden of a nation weigh down on their concentration. it's the hopes of the nation tat makes them lose all concentration. i could see it in lee jiawei's eyes in the semi finals. n even more obvious in the 3rd/4th placing playoffs. the newspaper said tat Singapore has few athletes tat we all can place hopes on. the ad about thanking those who managed to go far in the Games, is quite lame. defeating the purpose. juz makes us feel tat we were so so near n yet so far. 4 yrs away... haiz...
LONG WKEND!! HOOHOO!!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
my working life. even a female frd also complained to me how often i complained in my blog. but that's the only happening thing in my life. mayb i shall bother myself with a book. how slow m i? i'm only starting to read the breaking the da vinci's code. well... even a non-bookworm m reading... the world is changing.
my coffee appt with my pre u sem frds seem to not b able to pull thru. okie. for JIAHUI, we shall shift it to next fri or next sat. depends whether the rest can make it too anot. i'm good with these 2 days. hope jeremy can come along. i mean hardly anyone else other than the few of us meeting up. coffee n dinner.
complain n complain. be in my shoes n u'll understand why i complain about them. today yet again, someone who is 1 yr older, but junior in rank n service in the army, but senior by a few months in that department, juz told me off. dude, i tried my best n here u r not encouraging me to learn. hey if i'm really tat mean, i would juz let u do everything. i'm sure i can find reasons not to do it. or run away from the job. i haf less than 300 days in that ugly place. dont wan to tink about work off work hrs. it's lunch time!
my coffee appt with my pre u sem frds seem to not b able to pull thru. okie. for JIAHUI, we shall shift it to next fri or next sat. depends whether the rest can make it too anot. i'm good with these 2 days. hope jeremy can come along. i mean hardly anyone else other than the few of us meeting up. coffee n dinner.
complain n complain. be in my shoes n u'll understand why i complain about them. today yet again, someone who is 1 yr older, but junior in rank n service in the army, but senior by a few months in that department, juz told me off. dude, i tried my best n here u r not encouraging me to learn. hey if i'm really tat mean, i would juz let u do everything. i'm sure i can find reasons not to do it. or run away from the job. i haf less than 300 days in that ugly place. dont wan to tink about work off work hrs. it's lunch time!
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
where to stay... there's a lot of ways that i can start this msg. but still, i cant start this the right way. lets try n to start this entry in a few ways:
1) finally, everything has settled down. no longer m i going down to yishun after work. i'm not complaining. if by being there, my godma can feel beta, i would even rush down in a cab so tat i can b there longer than wat i usually does. how does it feel to b in her shoes, i imagine. it hurts alot seeing her like tat. to b in her shoes, it hurts even more. at least these things din happen to her when she's young, immature. she tried to hold back her tears. she doesnt want the pple ard her to worry about her. that's my godma. but i know, it hurts. over the past wk, i knew she wasnt able to accept the fact tat her father has passed away. how to? everyone hopes for the best. on our way to the crematorium, even thou she's in front of me, i sms-ed her this :
"Godma, the way of life is that there is always life and death. One day you celebrate the birth of a newborn child. and some other day, u part with someone else. what you need to understand is where he lives on that matters. it's in you. it's in your heart n mind. he has neva left you at all. pain is temporary but memories are everlasting. i'm sure he doesnt want to see you in this state."
she will need time to actually accept it totally i guess.. hope she will take care of herself.
2) yet again, i'm disappointed at work. someone is ord-ing. okie. it's normal for nsfs to have this ord mood b4 they ord, of course. the thing is, i also hope i can ord. but it's still 300 days away. 10 months. then this guy at work will juz hog the com. yes he does know his job well. yes he's working. but along with that, he gave some fucked up attitude. here i am trying to get work done. trying to solve some serious shit so tat i wont get any punishments for all the shit they've stored up. but but but... haiz.. really sometimes thou u wan to get things done, u juz lose all motivation, all hopes, all the positive attitudes.
3) cant wait for this wkend to come.. sounds familiar eh? i say tat all the time. i wan to go out n sip a cuppa coffee. did tat last wk with a frd of mine. we knew each other for quite a while n sometimes i tink he's the only one who can stand at the amount of shit i'm churning out n throwing at him (please read with discretion. coz i dun mean the literal form of shit). haha. would like to do tat with some other frds. really enjoyable feeling. juz sit ard n talk. it was a sunday afternoon in CBD. there was absolutely no one. somemore the coffee club outlet we were at, thou it was aircon-ed, u cant really feel the coldness of it. instead u feel cool coz they haf fans revolving above. nice feeling.
3 ways of starting this entry. but it all seems like juz 3 different issues of this entry. wat m i talking? i haf no idea. i wan to run away.. ahh... i'm going crazy... ah...
on sat, there's a ntu bash.. 8bucks but i hope i can go with someone. who le? still looking for frds to go. anyway, i'm attending my jc's anniversary dinner. got psycho-ed to attend it n pay $63 for it. okie la. juz go n enjoy it lo. m tinking of going down to topman n get myself a top for the dinner. mite as well. sometimes can also wear it to clubbing ah. quite tired of being in front of the computer now. i quite addicted to clubbing/chilling (i'm only a social drinker n a non smoker. dun tink i'm one of those addicts. juz wanna dance. m listening to some chill out music. making me crave to wan to hang out with my frds n chill to these music. mayb i shall go to the bash. hmmm...
1) finally, everything has settled down. no longer m i going down to yishun after work. i'm not complaining. if by being there, my godma can feel beta, i would even rush down in a cab so tat i can b there longer than wat i usually does. how does it feel to b in her shoes, i imagine. it hurts alot seeing her like tat. to b in her shoes, it hurts even more. at least these things din happen to her when she's young, immature. she tried to hold back her tears. she doesnt want the pple ard her to worry about her. that's my godma. but i know, it hurts. over the past wk, i knew she wasnt able to accept the fact tat her father has passed away. how to? everyone hopes for the best. on our way to the crematorium, even thou she's in front of me, i sms-ed her this :
"Godma, the way of life is that there is always life and death. One day you celebrate the birth of a newborn child. and some other day, u part with someone else. what you need to understand is where he lives on that matters. it's in you. it's in your heart n mind. he has neva left you at all. pain is temporary but memories are everlasting. i'm sure he doesnt want to see you in this state."
she will need time to actually accept it totally i guess.. hope she will take care of herself.
2) yet again, i'm disappointed at work. someone is ord-ing. okie. it's normal for nsfs to have this ord mood b4 they ord, of course. the thing is, i also hope i can ord. but it's still 300 days away. 10 months. then this guy at work will juz hog the com. yes he does know his job well. yes he's working. but along with that, he gave some fucked up attitude. here i am trying to get work done. trying to solve some serious shit so tat i wont get any punishments for all the shit they've stored up. but but but... haiz.. really sometimes thou u wan to get things done, u juz lose all motivation, all hopes, all the positive attitudes.
3) cant wait for this wkend to come.. sounds familiar eh? i say tat all the time. i wan to go out n sip a cuppa coffee. did tat last wk with a frd of mine. we knew each other for quite a while n sometimes i tink he's the only one who can stand at the amount of shit i'm churning out n throwing at him (please read with discretion. coz i dun mean the literal form of shit). haha. would like to do tat with some other frds. really enjoyable feeling. juz sit ard n talk. it was a sunday afternoon in CBD. there was absolutely no one. somemore the coffee club outlet we were at, thou it was aircon-ed, u cant really feel the coldness of it. instead u feel cool coz they haf fans revolving above. nice feeling.
3 ways of starting this entry. but it all seems like juz 3 different issues of this entry. wat m i talking? i haf no idea. i wan to run away.. ahh... i'm going crazy... ah...
on sat, there's a ntu bash.. 8bucks but i hope i can go with someone. who le? still looking for frds to go. anyway, i'm attending my jc's anniversary dinner. got psycho-ed to attend it n pay $63 for it. okie la. juz go n enjoy it lo. m tinking of going down to topman n get myself a top for the dinner. mite as well. sometimes can also wear it to clubbing ah. quite tired of being in front of the computer now. i quite addicted to clubbing/chilling (i'm only a social drinker n a non smoker. dun tink i'm one of those addicts. juz wanna dance. m listening to some chill out music. making me crave to wan to hang out with my frds n chill to these music. mayb i shall go to the bash. hmmm...
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
quite sad at work... din noe wat to do, how to do. juz very lost. lost all motivation to do my part.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
today today... really dunno where to start. i guess most of wat i've to say is whateva happened after work. BUT i still hate work. or at least my workplace.
b4 lunch my mum msged to tell me something. she told me tat my godma's father had passed away. okie. he has not been in the best of health. was admitted to the hospital quite some time back. my mum was tinkin tat there mite not b much time left for him. upon receiving that msg from my mum, i juz decided to call my godma. oh dear, she's crying on the other side. i wished i could do more for her. i mean wat she needs more is her immediate family. not me. the next person i called was my mum. i told her my plans of going down to the wake to visit my godma. i had to do tat. she's always very gd to me. very positive to the things i do. when i saw her, she was numb. she din noe how to feel. deep inside her, she's very sad. i can imagine her feeling. she was delirious to the point where she actually asked the same question to me thrice. she kept asking me to sit down when everyone else is standing. the family, being buddhist, had pple coming over the chant. during the chant, she couldnt take it. she started crying. my heart went out to her. i can feel her pain.for her, there's even more history btw her n her parents. even at my age, i tink it will hurt me the same if i'm in her shoes. it also hurts me to see her cry. i put myself in her shoes. the pain of a loss of a loved one. how great is that? at that instance, i cant help myself but wan to cry. (ok PS u can say me emotionAL now) juz reminds me of a feeeling i had when i listened to "Luther Vandross' - Dance With My Father". go listen to this song. lyrics can b found in one of May's entry. when i went over to hug her n comfort her, she told me something : "i have no more father." (goodness i feel like crying now - such a softie) i wanted to scold her. i wanted to remind her that she has a father. it's juz tat he has migrated from being a physical being into a memory in her heart n mind. i really hope she can get out of it soon enuf to get back to life. i really hope she gets beta.
it's a feeling tat i hope no one has to go thru but it's the way of life. i guess when such things happen, the best is to get the support of the rest of the family n frds. mayb i should go down to the wake again tmr.
b4 lunch my mum msged to tell me something. she told me tat my godma's father had passed away. okie. he has not been in the best of health. was admitted to the hospital quite some time back. my mum was tinkin tat there mite not b much time left for him. upon receiving that msg from my mum, i juz decided to call my godma. oh dear, she's crying on the other side. i wished i could do more for her. i mean wat she needs more is her immediate family. not me. the next person i called was my mum. i told her my plans of going down to the wake to visit my godma. i had to do tat. she's always very gd to me. very positive to the things i do. when i saw her, she was numb. she din noe how to feel. deep inside her, she's very sad. i can imagine her feeling. she was delirious to the point where she actually asked the same question to me thrice. she kept asking me to sit down when everyone else is standing. the family, being buddhist, had pple coming over the chant. during the chant, she couldnt take it. she started crying. my heart went out to her. i can feel her pain.for her, there's even more history btw her n her parents. even at my age, i tink it will hurt me the same if i'm in her shoes. it also hurts me to see her cry. i put myself in her shoes. the pain of a loss of a loved one. how great is that? at that instance, i cant help myself but wan to cry. (ok PS u can say me emotionAL now) juz reminds me of a feeeling i had when i listened to "Luther Vandross' - Dance With My Father". go listen to this song. lyrics can b found in one of May's entry. when i went over to hug her n comfort her, she told me something : "i have no more father." (goodness i feel like crying now - such a softie) i wanted to scold her. i wanted to remind her that she has a father. it's juz tat he has migrated from being a physical being into a memory in her heart n mind. i really hope she can get out of it soon enuf to get back to life. i really hope she gets beta.
it's a feeling tat i hope no one has to go thru but it's the way of life. i guess when such things happen, the best is to get the support of the rest of the family n frds. mayb i should go down to the wake again tmr.
Thursday, August 12, 2004
PS Fir, really nice talking to u last nite. indeed i was really shocked. i'm very sure we can actually get together soon n hang out. soon enuf, even ur last batch will become civilians too leh..
had a gd talk with my chief clerk... well she did change her attitude towards me.. i has lesser things against her now. BUT i still wan to come back to the place i belong. aint that the msg behind some of the patriot songs that we sing on national day? ha... i do feel beta than yesterday after the talk with her. the main reason being that she did go thru so much more than all of us had. been thru so many phases of army life, as a DXO (civilian working in the army or a uniformed personnel). everything she scolds us, it juz becoz of some stupid mistake we did n she wans us to actually not do tat mistake again.. i'm such a wuss rite? believeing her so easily. i mean we did haf a talk for an hr n half after work ended for that day..
weekend is so near now.. cant wait... but someone i will miss much after this weekend. my brother is going back to melbourne. he really knows how to take care of me. mayb it's me but i really like being taken care by him. haha.. wat r big brothers for? to take care of younger siblings lo... (such a spoilt brat comment!) ... but for half a yr, i wont b able to see him again.. till next chinese new yr. i'm sure going to miss him!
i wanna dance again. had so much fun last sunday. if i could turn back the hands of time (eh doesnt tat line sound familiar? it's the title of R Kelly's song), i would ... eh i would actually turn it back till quite some time back. to do the things i regret not doing now. how i wish i haf that power!
had a gd talk with my chief clerk... well she did change her attitude towards me.. i has lesser things against her now. BUT i still wan to come back to the place i belong. aint that the msg behind some of the patriot songs that we sing on national day? ha... i do feel beta than yesterday after the talk with her. the main reason being that she did go thru so much more than all of us had. been thru so many phases of army life, as a DXO (civilian working in the army or a uniformed personnel). everything she scolds us, it juz becoz of some stupid mistake we did n she wans us to actually not do tat mistake again.. i'm such a wuss rite? believeing her so easily. i mean we did haf a talk for an hr n half after work ended for that day..
weekend is so near now.. cant wait... but someone i will miss much after this weekend. my brother is going back to melbourne. he really knows how to take care of me. mayb it's me but i really like being taken care by him. haha.. wat r big brothers for? to take care of younger siblings lo... (such a spoilt brat comment!) ... but for half a yr, i wont b able to see him again.. till next chinese new yr. i'm sure going to miss him!
i wanna dance again. had so much fun last sunday. if i could turn back the hands of time (eh doesnt tat line sound familiar? it's the title of R Kelly's song), i would ... eh i would actually turn it back till quite some time back. to do the things i regret not doing now. how i wish i haf that power!
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
my mood is very lousy now. y? oz my cheif clerk has too many rules. yes we may b in the army. but u r a civillian. tat's y. in the future, do expect an uprising. when there r too many rules, pple will rebel. they dun need to start. the rest of the clerks can do that themselves.
i wan to get out today, but i guess work will end late. n furthermore, there's singapore idol later on. kudos to the loser who is the watermelon man... next time when i see u on the street, do accept my deepest shoutout to u " LOSER". guess i'm not in the right frame of mind. shall remain as that for the whole of today (while at work tat is)!
i wan to get out today, but i guess work will end late. n furthermore, there's singapore idol later on. kudos to the loser who is the watermelon man... next time when i see u on the street, do accept my deepest shoutout to u " LOSER". guess i'm not in the right frame of mind. shall remain as that for the whole of today (while at work tat is)!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
here i am, in the office which i used to spend so much time in. so much of the time spent here r happy moments. lazing in front of the com with my frds, lazing on the sofas reading the newspapers or talking to my fellow colleagues, frds. lets not dwell on that.
my current work attitude is not to care so much. juz get myself one thing to do n let it occupy myself till the end of the day... any other thing, juz in one ear n out the other. let the other newbie handle everything. well someone has to b the lau jiao (old bird). anyway he has a long time in that department. me will ord in less than 10 month's time. ORD mood will start next jan.. heh
finally got my hair cut. actually i liked it alot. very manageable.. y din i do tat b4 the party? would b so much easier n very comfy. haha... not so much hair now. but my bunkmate, this metrosexual guy, kept laughing at me. he has this thing about my hair. ha. he commented tat my sideburns r shaved too straight. haha. actually i couldnt really b bothered. i liked this hairstyle n i told myself b4 the haircut. dun bother so much about the hair. i dun wan myself to b so bothered about the hair. about the outlook. i wan to b more nonchalant in that sense.
i would want 2 club again this weekend. n hopefully i can get to know some gals along the way... haha. i dun wan to sound desperate over here but sometimes i do feel lonely. esp when i hang out in orchard n see those couples walking ard. y m i single? ha..
current music: F.I.R. - Fly Away (gets me high everytime i hear it. very happy song.)
my current work attitude is not to care so much. juz get myself one thing to do n let it occupy myself till the end of the day... any other thing, juz in one ear n out the other. let the other newbie handle everything. well someone has to b the lau jiao (old bird). anyway he has a long time in that department. me will ord in less than 10 month's time. ORD mood will start next jan.. heh
finally got my hair cut. actually i liked it alot. very manageable.. y din i do tat b4 the party? would b so much easier n very comfy. haha... not so much hair now. but my bunkmate, this metrosexual guy, kept laughing at me. he has this thing about my hair. ha. he commented tat my sideburns r shaved too straight. haha. actually i couldnt really b bothered. i liked this hairstyle n i told myself b4 the haircut. dun bother so much about the hair. i dun wan myself to b so bothered about the hair. about the outlook. i wan to b more nonchalant in that sense.
i would want 2 club again this weekend. n hopefully i can get to know some gals along the way... haha. i dun wan to sound desperate over here but sometimes i do feel lonely. esp when i hang out in orchard n see those couples walking ard. y m i single? ha..
current music: F.I.R. - Fly Away (gets me high everytime i hear it. very happy song.)
Monday, August 09, 2004
wat a boring day. it's worse when the tot of me having to book in n face my work place tmr morning... now must try to tink of how m i going to enjoy myself at work tmr... hmmm..... sms everyone i know? eat some chocolate? listen to some songs n ignore my chief clerk? or mayb hope tat tmr i will receive some gd news from camp? mayb they will post me back to my former unit as a clerk? tat dream will neva die.... until next jan when i will start to swtich off from work. thou by then i would still half half a yr to go, but having a hols then (will visit my bro again in melbourne for chinese new yr), i will come back having the ORD mood. i should haf some understudy by then. if not, juz let the other guy die. no probs man..
went out last nite. was damn shagged last nite sia. saw a few frds (or acquaintances)... danced the nite away but wasnt feeling rite from the start but it was quite an experience. clubbing on sunday nite, something new.
gonna cut my hair today! m sure going to miss this current length. pple wont tink i'm from the army with this length. but gonna b a guai boy. feel like shopping later. wanna get myself some nike, adidas stuff... hmm....
went out last nite. was damn shagged last nite sia. saw a few frds (or acquaintances)... danced the nite away but wasnt feeling rite from the start but it was quite an experience. clubbing on sunday nite, something new.
gonna cut my hair today! m sure going to miss this current length. pple wont tink i'm from the army with this length. but gonna b a guai boy. feel like shopping later. wanna get myself some nike, adidas stuff... hmm....
Sunday, August 08, 2004
i dunno wat to say... was quite happy to leave camp. but now tat i'm out, i really dunno wat to expect. tot i planned the perfect schedule for these few days but all screwed by frds who decided to all go for a party.. n to last min get the tix, it cost quite a bit. in the end, i came home. actually i guess i'm going to shelf all my plans for this perfect wkend getaway. juz sianz by everyone... y do i feel so jaded? met a frd in gym. he asked me tat qn. i really dunno leh.. i'm still young leh.
who actually treats me as a frd?
who actually treats me as a frd?
Friday, August 06, 2004
friday... everyone in the army would b planning for their supe long retreat to the civillian life. me too... BUT.. (a big fat) BUT... my current workplace, 165 ORDERLY ROOM, (must spell out loud so tat every single one knows) doesnt believe tat a new guy (thou not tat new in service), cant go for long wkend. it is so coz it has neva done b4. okie. yes i've heard tat from the other guys in the same workplace, but it's still shocking to have heard it from the superior's mouth. doesnt mean it has neva been done means it's not right to do it. yes unfair to the rest but u have to tink of the fact tat i'm no longer a greenhorn in the army. i'm so comtempating that there will come a day when i cant take it that i shall call the SAF hotline. to give my bosses some jialat jialat n to gif future clerks in that workplace some benefits.
i still cant stand working there. m trying hard to skive. now i'm at the point where during office hours, i make small notes for myself as i cant tell others my feelings. so i "said" it out by writing... tat place sux!!! they told me tat i should not tell pple from my former unit about things from my workplace (said by my current 165 SQN's s1). screw him!
oops... enuf of my public outburst since this place can b read by anyone... i should regain to my normal self. m so going to enjoy my long wkend (thou cut short by at least half a day). cant wait. cant wait!
i still cant stand working there. m trying hard to skive. now i'm at the point where during office hours, i make small notes for myself as i cant tell others my feelings. so i "said" it out by writing... tat place sux!!! they told me tat i should not tell pple from my former unit about things from my workplace (said by my current 165 SQN's s1). screw him!
oops... enuf of my public outburst since this place can b read by anyone... i should regain to my normal self. m so going to enjoy my long wkend (thou cut short by at least half a day). cant wait. cant wait!
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
last nite i went out to relax myself n to get dinner. the aunties at the cookhouse din keep any food left for me even thoui told one of them too. the aunty i told was the main chef for dinner that nite. it was supposed to b hokkien noodles. something different from the normal menu of rice n side dishes. she was appologetic and i accepted it. she actually told another aunty to keep some for me. i always talk to the aunties in the cookhouse hence they r nice to me. oh well... at that time i really wanted to cry. neva deny a hungry man food!!
okie. i went up to bunk n got prepared to get out for movie n dinner. my frds had all eaten so i was the only hungry man ard. all of us had our things to handle b4 the movie started. the movie was "The House of Flying Daggers". wat a lousy movie. or rather it's an art flim. something i could not apprehend while watching it. i actually felt asleep n snored (in order to defend myself, i had to say this: once ur sleeping position blocks the airways, one tend to snore). the way of shooting the movie is something i could not agree with. with all these said, it's up to ur own rick of whether u wan to go n catch that movie.
anohter day at work. still dreading the start of everyday coz i know i haf to go to work at that horrid place! cant stand it further. i still want OUT!
okie. i went up to bunk n got prepared to get out for movie n dinner. my frds had all eaten so i was the only hungry man ard. all of us had our things to handle b4 the movie started. the movie was "The House of Flying Daggers". wat a lousy movie. or rather it's an art flim. something i could not apprehend while watching it. i actually felt asleep n snored (in order to defend myself, i had to say this: once ur sleeping position blocks the airways, one tend to snore). the way of shooting the movie is something i could not agree with. with all these said, it's up to ur own rick of whether u wan to go n catch that movie.
anohter day at work. still dreading the start of everyday coz i know i haf to go to work at that horrid place! cant stand it further. i still want OUT!
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
i want out of my current work place! n i miss someone.. a frd. he juz flew off in the wee hours of today. he's back to beijing to work... will b a long while till he's back again! do take care ya!
but most importantly, i wan out of this place. i hope my former unit's pple r working hard enuf to try n get me back! i hope they r sincere. juz saw my former oc. i told him how much i detest staying in there. some of the pple i work in the current lpace knows how much i wan out! hope there's enuf to get me out. i'm so waiting for my mandatory interview with my current boss. then i shall start telling him how much i wan out. guys, wish me lots of luck!!
but most importantly, i wan out of this place. i hope my former unit's pple r working hard enuf to try n get me back! i hope they r sincere. juz saw my former oc. i told him how much i detest staying in there. some of the pple i work in the current lpace knows how much i wan out! hope there's enuf to get me out. i'm so waiting for my mandatory interview with my current boss. then i shall start telling him how much i wan out. guys, wish me lots of luck!!
Monday, August 02, 2004
Last week was an eventful week. y so? coz the future of my nsf liability is unknown. i was on paper, transfered from place to place like no one's business. posted to HQ RSAF, then back to my former unit n now to the neighbour unit 165 SQN. i receieved my posting on sat, close to noon when i was on my way back. that call spells the end of my comfortable unit life. n it brought up some problems i forsee myself facing. lodging? pple i'm familiar with? policies?
i'm still in this camp as this camp houses 2 different units. so tat means i've probably seen most of the pple but becoz we were from different units, hence there's no interaction. now becoz of fate, i'm posted to that unit. i haf to start all over again n noe everyone whom i've ignored as strangers. wat a twist of fate. becoz of the location of camp, staying in is a preferred choice. all along i've grown comfortable staying in my bunk but becoz of me now transfered to the other unit, by right, i would haf to shift. i guess on paper, i will shift but whether will i sleep there, it's another thing.
today went to report to the new workplace for me. woah. i was having culture shock. i was posted to the orderly room of 165 SQN. the chief clerk laid down so many rules tat i felt so overwhelmed by her.. i wanted out immediately. the only tot tat kept me goin is tat i only haf 10 months left. 10 more months. imagine PS Fir, so fast since u took us eh? 10 more months n ur last batch of recruits will ord. time sure flies. i've been in this camp, this unit 163 SQN for more than a yr. many things i've learnt, about the pple, about the history, about my equipment, about the lifestyle. it's going to b difficult to change my mindset totally. when u been thru hell somewhere, with a group of pple u call frds now, it's difficult to get out of it, into another place where bonding will b difficult to forge. no hardship to bring us together. 10 more months (i remind myself again n again)....
Song - An Jing by Jay Chou
i'm still in this camp as this camp houses 2 different units. so tat means i've probably seen most of the pple but becoz we were from different units, hence there's no interaction. now becoz of fate, i'm posted to that unit. i haf to start all over again n noe everyone whom i've ignored as strangers. wat a twist of fate. becoz of the location of camp, staying in is a preferred choice. all along i've grown comfortable staying in my bunk but becoz of me now transfered to the other unit, by right, i would haf to shift. i guess on paper, i will shift but whether will i sleep there, it's another thing.
today went to report to the new workplace for me. woah. i was having culture shock. i was posted to the orderly room of 165 SQN. the chief clerk laid down so many rules tat i felt so overwhelmed by her.. i wanted out immediately. the only tot tat kept me goin is tat i only haf 10 months left. 10 more months. imagine PS Fir, so fast since u took us eh? 10 more months n ur last batch of recruits will ord. time sure flies. i've been in this camp, this unit 163 SQN for more than a yr. many things i've learnt, about the pple, about the history, about my equipment, about the lifestyle. it's going to b difficult to change my mindset totally. when u been thru hell somewhere, with a group of pple u call frds now, it's difficult to get out of it, into another place where bonding will b difficult to forge. no hardship to bring us together. 10 more months (i remind myself again n again)....
Song - An Jing by Jay Chou
