Friday, June 25, 2004
finally i'm heading home tonight... but there r some feelings tat r brought forward from yest. i guess i'm not a successful person. someone once said tat a successful person is one who knows how to control his/her emotions, know how to control. learning how to control? anyone knows how to?
last nite i was using the com n my fellow campmate, who happens to b my pri classmate, can see the difference in personality. his blog is added to my links of frds u seer on the right column - yong xiang (bear bear). very cute character i tell ya. i was amazed at him having a blog coz he's such a cheenaboybear bear. ha.
for the past few days, i was quite happy at my job scope for now but today, i'm juz not able to control!!!! argh!
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL..... screammmmmmm...........
last nite i was using the com n my fellow campmate, who happens to b my pri classmate, can see the difference in personality. his blog is added to my links of frds u seer on the right column - yong xiang (bear bear). very cute character i tell ya. i was amazed at him having a blog coz he's such a cheena
for the past few days, i was quite happy at my job scope for now but today, i'm juz not able to control!!!! argh!
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL..... screammmmmmm...........
Thursday, June 24, 2004
back to myself now. today aint a fantastic day.. thou shld seem fine la. anyway after a bathe n some exercises, i feel beta. i'm not longer feeling frustrated, instead, i feel like i can gif some love out!! haha...
sometimes it's diff to share with those who r reading my excitement. currently there's a person i'm interested. she's in sydney. she did express mutual admiration. she wishes tat i can go over to sydney to look for her. i'm replying to her saying mayb when i head to melb next chinese new yr, i can also hope by sydney to look for her. actually by then she will b back in sg for hols. wat a crazy idea eh? i tink so too but plausible.
everytime i haf some entry here, wat's goin thru my mind : 1)this is an outlet for me. yes there r times when pple say it's difficult to know me, but here is a gd way of "reading" me. mayb that's the reason why my Platoon sarge said i am a quiet person. actually i tot i'm quite a loud n talkative person. juz look at my blog entries? all full of crap. 2)try n create some style of writing. i admit, i dun haf the gift of the gap nor the power of english (pardon my english for all the grammatical, spelling errors or the lack of vocab), but i try to make things interesting over here.
oh well....
sometimes it's diff to share with those who r reading my excitement. currently there's a person i'm interested. she's in sydney. she did express mutual admiration. she wishes tat i can go over to sydney to look for her. i'm replying to her saying mayb when i head to melb next chinese new yr, i can also hope by sydney to look for her. actually by then she will b back in sg for hols. wat a crazy idea eh? i tink so too but plausible.
everytime i haf some entry here, wat's goin thru my mind : 1)this is an outlet for me. yes there r times when pple say it's difficult to know me, but here is a gd way of "reading" me. mayb that's the reason why my Platoon sarge said i am a quiet person. actually i tot i'm quite a loud n talkative person. juz look at my blog entries? all full of crap. 2)try n create some style of writing. i admit, i dun haf the gift of the gap nor the power of english (pardon my english for all the grammatical, spelling errors or the lack of vocab), but i try to make things interesting over here.
oh well....
today quite frustrating. dunno leh. trying to control my emotions but cant. juz too much nagging from a bunkmate of mine. i tried to cool down but yet he goes again. i guess i'll juz keep quiet for the whole day loh.. tired... tired.. tired.
i wonder will i post out... i wonder..
tired tired tired. human relations r so fragile. y? r u thinking too much? i am... m i too sensitive? i am.... (radio's playing hoobastank - the reason.. nice nice).
wanted to say so much... mayb i should drown myself in music. i realised tat ever since the release of results of entry into uni, i've neva been really happy, except for one wkend when i truly thank GOD for that. there r many things to complete. many things to plan. many things to frown over. y b bothered by all these shit?! i wanna forget all my worries. to forget how to b sensitive. to remember how to b happy (again).
do u guys actually think u know me beta after reading my blog?
i wonder will i post out... i wonder..
tired tired tired. human relations r so fragile. y? r u thinking too much? i am... m i too sensitive? i am.... (radio's playing hoobastank - the reason.. nice nice).
wanted to say so much... mayb i should drown myself in music. i realised tat ever since the release of results of entry into uni, i've neva been really happy, except for one wkend when i truly thank GOD for that. there r many things to complete. many things to plan. many things to frown over. y b bothered by all these shit?! i wanna forget all my worries. to forget how to b sensitive. to remember how to b happy (again).
do u guys actually think u know me beta after reading my blog?
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
midweek... one thing i cant wait to do is to get out of camp n into the arms of civilisation. ha! over the wkend, i'm so getting a present for this kor of mine. woah.. i remember then on my b'day he gave me a pierre cardin wallet. should b quite ex. till now i still dun dare to use the wallet. not used to using such ex wallets tat r leather.
over the wkend i'm going to meet my pre-u sem frds. it's been a while since i've last seen them. *reminder* i'm a nostalgic person. so everytime i'm meeting this group of frds, i'll remember the times we spent at the camp, at the beach, at all the gatherings. thou we dun really meet up often, when we do, we'll catch up. things do feel the same. tat's something i like..
yet another person beheaded in iraq. wat is the world coming to? was reading this webbie n it seems like pple in iraq r also against all these killings. but i guess it's the fault of the Mr George Bush Jr. oh well..
over the wkend i'm going to meet my pre-u sem frds. it's been a while since i've last seen them. *reminder* i'm a nostalgic person. so everytime i'm meeting this group of frds, i'll remember the times we spent at the camp, at the beach, at all the gatherings. thou we dun really meet up often, when we do, we'll catch up. things do feel the same. tat's something i like..
yet another person beheaded in iraq. wat is the world coming to? was reading this webbie n it seems like pple in iraq r also against all these killings. but i guess it's the fault of the Mr George Bush Jr. oh well..
Sunday, June 20, 2004
on to my next idea, (new post so easier to read). love. was tinking about it while suntannin today.
"do opposite really attract, just like a magnet?"
haha. i made myself sound like sarah jessica parker in sex & the city. but is tat true? if it is so, y do we hear so many pple break up becoz of indifferences? i tink juz tat line is enuf to overturn tat statement. or mayb pple r juz finding excuses out of a relastionship? indeed a lame excuse.
okie. so if it's not true. i've also once heard of this finding that pple normally like others becoz it's the closest they've found to themselves. so generally saying, pple r narcissistic la. tat explains y pple always say they like pple who shares the same character, hobbies as themselves.
but wont liking someone who is totally different, even more of an experience? so many things r different from our own lifestyles. everyday can/could b a new experience. new learning of the other person... aint tat more interesting?
"do opposite really attract, just like a magnet?"
haha. i made myself sound like sarah jessica parker in sex & the city. but is tat true? if it is so, y do we hear so many pple break up becoz of indifferences? i tink juz tat line is enuf to overturn tat statement. or mayb pple r juz finding excuses out of a relastionship? indeed a lame excuse.
okie. so if it's not true. i've also once heard of this finding that pple normally like others becoz it's the closest they've found to themselves. so generally saying, pple r narcissistic la. tat explains y pple always say they like pple who shares the same character, hobbies as themselves.
but wont liking someone who is totally different, even more of an experience? so many things r different from our own lifestyles. everyday can/could b a new experience. new learning of the other person... aint tat more interesting?
wat a break. 3 days coz i did duty on tues till thurs n had off on fri, coupled with the wkend. went shopping, suntanning (hey! it's the in-est thing to b dark! so guys n gals, get some sun on ur skin), gym (haven done cardio exercises for a while) n dance (as usual). bought myself a sling bag n berms. love the bag. already started using it. haha.
anyway today, juz on one bus ride home from hougang point, i saw 2 different acts of kindess. 1) saw an indian guy boarding the bus. but he board the bus without any change. alright. so he went behind n asked someone for change to a $2 note. he approached 2 malay guys standing nearest to him. one of them offered some coins but it didnt amount to 2 bucks. he passed it to the indian guy n in exchange, the indian guy gave the note to the malay guy. but he din accept. the pushing of the note went on for a min or so n eventually the indian guy thanked the malay guy for the coins n still he din accept the note.
2) saw this indian gal giving up the seat next to her n hers to this grandma n her grandson.
with these acts, it juz warms my heart to tink that singaporeans (some) r not bad after all. but there's still something wrong with the culture. with the things pple r teaching their children these days. with how pple act (not as in drama acting). kiasu-ism, kiasi-ism... all so singaporean. but i hope one day, pple wont relate these ideology to singaporeans.
anyway today, juz on one bus ride home from hougang point, i saw 2 different acts of kindess. 1) saw an indian guy boarding the bus. but he board the bus without any change. alright. so he went behind n asked someone for change to a $2 note. he approached 2 malay guys standing nearest to him. one of them offered some coins but it didnt amount to 2 bucks. he passed it to the indian guy n in exchange, the indian guy gave the note to the malay guy. but he din accept. the pushing of the note went on for a min or so n eventually the indian guy thanked the malay guy for the coins n still he din accept the note.
2) saw this indian gal giving up the seat next to her n hers to this grandma n her grandson.
with these acts, it juz warms my heart to tink that singaporeans (some) r not bad after all. but there's still something wrong with the culture. with the things pple r teaching their children these days. with how pple act (not as in drama acting). kiasu-ism, kiasi-ism... all so singaporean. but i hope one day, pple wont relate these ideology to singaporeans.
Friday, June 18, 2004
MUSIC of the moment - Diana Degarmo - I Believe, Because You Loved Me, Dont Cry Out Loud
enough of that. sorry tat one wk din haf any entry. for i was on outfield duty during the past 3 days. hence cant use the com to update u guys who actually bother to read.
many many major things happened to me recently. i juz i shall start off with the news tat most of us know by now. NS liability for those enlisting in dec 2004 will only haf to serve 2 yrs. n those in service will haf a reduction in 2 months of liability. which in turns means i'll ord one yr from yesterday!!!! hurray!! Dear BMT platoon mates, we haf less than a yr from today!! tat was MAJOR news to us man!
second news came on the same day as the previous news but earlier. n this is a sad news. i was quite affected by this news. tat's y when the reduction news came along, i wasnt as happy as everyone else. some of u guys out there mite not know i;ve downgraded. but yes i'm no longer the pes A u guys know till april this yr. as of april 20th 2004, i've downgraded to pes c9l3. which means i will neva eva haf to take ippt again nor go outfield. but my current vocation is combat vocation n i do go outfield. my unit has already tried it's best to retain me as a combat serviceman by submitting a term of reference to the medical board. but they r not willing to take the risk if i were to injure myself. but becoz they submitted that term of reference to higher management, many pple r known of my condition n they haf no choice but to transfer me out of the place. then i asked, how come i haf a senior who also haf the same medical pes status as me but remained in the same vocation? becoz they din report up to higher management. now they will haf to revocate me n i mite get posted back to the same unit, other department, lesser pay, n stay out status. but my camp is............... in the west. limchukang!! where i stay?........... sengkang! it takes me 1 1/2 hrs juz to get back home by public transport, via the cheapest way. crazy to wake up early in the morning juz go camp. if they decide to revcoate me n post me out of the job scope i'm already in, out of the office i fall in every morning, i hope they post me out of the camp, to HQ ADSD. heaven is awaitin over there.
things r not tat easy. today i've finished my last duty ever. that place has grown to quite a comfort. juz like a chalet (tat's wat i tot when i 1st entered the building) - outfield can also b built up. cuz juz one building up on a hill. (shhhh... cant say too much about my vocation or else i've to kill YOU! shhhhh....). last time i'm going to walk up tat hill. last time i'm going to play pinball on tat computer. last time sleeping there. last time seeing sunrise or sunset over there (it looks so nice over there when it rains. i'll neva forget!) my frd once said i'm a nostalgic guy. i agree!
are u a person who lives in the memories of yesteryears or u look forward to the future? looking forward to the uncertain future is a scary thing. remember i once talked about the future? everything u tink of the future is built on the best possible situation. things mite not turn out the way u wan. mite b the total opposite. how scary is tat tot? i'm definitely a person who likes to relive the gd times. over n over again i do tat. sometimes i can cry over that. ha. i'm sensitive... (mayb also a new age guy? ;P)
but seriously, leaving a place (my unit) where i've already been there for a yr. lived thru terrible training sessions, been thru exercises, deployments which r quite tough, i believe all of us crewmen haf grown used to each other. missing one (for them), miss 14 of them (for me) is tough. haiz...
enough of that. sorry tat one wk din haf any entry. for i was on outfield duty during the past 3 days. hence cant use the com to update u guys who actually bother to read.
many many major things happened to me recently. i juz i shall start off with the news tat most of us know by now. NS liability for those enlisting in dec 2004 will only haf to serve 2 yrs. n those in service will haf a reduction in 2 months of liability. which in turns means i'll ord one yr from yesterday!!!! hurray!! Dear BMT platoon mates, we haf less than a yr from today!! tat was MAJOR news to us man!
second news came on the same day as the previous news but earlier. n this is a sad news. i was quite affected by this news. tat's y when the reduction news came along, i wasnt as happy as everyone else. some of u guys out there mite not know i;ve downgraded. but yes i'm no longer the pes A u guys know till april this yr. as of april 20th 2004, i've downgraded to pes c9l3. which means i will neva eva haf to take ippt again nor go outfield. but my current vocation is combat vocation n i do go outfield. my unit has already tried it's best to retain me as a combat serviceman by submitting a term of reference to the medical board. but they r not willing to take the risk if i were to injure myself. but becoz they submitted that term of reference to higher management, many pple r known of my condition n they haf no choice but to transfer me out of the place. then i asked, how come i haf a senior who also haf the same medical pes status as me but remained in the same vocation? becoz they din report up to higher management. now they will haf to revocate me n i mite get posted back to the same unit, other department, lesser pay, n stay out status. but my camp is............... in the west. limchukang!! where i stay?........... sengkang! it takes me 1 1/2 hrs juz to get back home by public transport, via the cheapest way. crazy to wake up early in the morning juz go camp. if they decide to revcoate me n post me out of the job scope i'm already in, out of the office i fall in every morning, i hope they post me out of the camp, to HQ ADSD. heaven is awaitin over there.
things r not tat easy. today i've finished my last duty ever. that place has grown to quite a comfort. juz like a chalet (tat's wat i tot when i 1st entered the building) - outfield can also b built up. cuz juz one building up on a hill. (shhhh... cant say too much about my vocation or else i've to kill YOU! shhhhh....). last time i'm going to walk up tat hill. last time i'm going to play pinball on tat computer. last time sleeping there. last time seeing sunrise or sunset over there (it looks so nice over there when it rains. i'll neva forget!) my frd once said i'm a nostalgic guy. i agree!
are u a person who lives in the memories of yesteryears or u look forward to the future? looking forward to the uncertain future is a scary thing. remember i once talked about the future? everything u tink of the future is built on the best possible situation. things mite not turn out the way u wan. mite b the total opposite. how scary is tat tot? i'm definitely a person who likes to relive the gd times. over n over again i do tat. sometimes i can cry over that. ha. i'm sensitive... (mayb also a new age guy? ;P)
but seriously, leaving a place (my unit) where i've already been there for a yr. lived thru terrible training sessions, been thru exercises, deployments which r quite tough, i believe all of us crewmen haf grown used to each other. missing one (for them), miss 14 of them (for me) is tough. haiz...
Sunday, June 13, 2004
summary of the wk: wasnt fantastic when i was in camp for the past wk. but thank god for the breather over the wkend. enjoyed myself. met some frds. bake some cookies. went tanning. enjoyed the sun (thou it's hot).
what can i say? i din really do wat i wanted to do. get to know myself a little beta. but there r some off days ahead. i guess i will do so.
over the wkend, i asked myself who r indeed frds. god gave me a few pple to b thankful of. my pre-u sem frds: sam, junxu, jiahui, sam, jonathan, n the rest. my jc classmates: junlin, merv, LQ, youan, meisze. my sec sch classmates: xingwen, philip. even thou contact wasnt consistent, but u guys made me feel tat frdships can still remain. i'll try my best to try n remain contact. frdships, as the name terms, is a vessel for which we hope into. in tat vessel, we sail thru all obstacles, we sail thru calm seas. do remember this, i wont forget u guys. there may come a time tat i wont b able to hang out with u guys often, as i mite go overseas to further my studies, but do remember tat u guys haf a perm space in my heart!
Friendship rox!
what can i say? i din really do wat i wanted to do. get to know myself a little beta. but there r some off days ahead. i guess i will do so.
over the wkend, i asked myself who r indeed frds. god gave me a few pple to b thankful of. my pre-u sem frds: sam, junxu, jiahui, sam, jonathan, n the rest. my jc classmates: junlin, merv, LQ, youan, meisze. my sec sch classmates: xingwen, philip. even thou contact wasnt consistent, but u guys made me feel tat frdships can still remain. i'll try my best to try n remain contact. frdships, as the name terms, is a vessel for which we hope into. in tat vessel, we sail thru all obstacles, we sail thru calm seas. do remember this, i wont forget u guys. there may come a time tat i wont b able to hang out with u guys often, as i mite go overseas to further my studies, but do remember tat u guys haf a perm space in my heart!
Friendship rox!
Friday, June 11, 2004
TGIF? not anymore. m feeling quite overworked today. no mood to do anything rite anymore. yes this is the army but do anyone care about how we actually feel?
it's always said tat in the army, one will learn alot about the life we'll haf after grad from studies n come out to the "real" world n start working. yes, politics can b learnt over here. pple pull ranks, pull favours, apple polish... all kinds. must our society b like dat? would pple b happy working under u? would things progress rather than to go downhill? sometimes i'm quite sick of all this office politics and often dream tat if i were to startup a company, i would try n minimise such environment from fostering. this environment would b a very positive one where everyone is being recognised for their efforts n not their sucking-up skills.
today's mood was initially alright. but guess last nite din haf a gd sleep. wanted to forget everything by sleeping but coz i'm a light sleeper, those who came back to camp last nite made such a LOUD din tat i was awaken. earlier in the morning i told a frd i felt beta than yest but now, i'm very tired. hope tonight's KTV session can lift up my mood! even thou i mite nt b there to sing but juz wanna forget all my troubles for now!
tmr shall b cookies day yet again. hurray. i'm sure to b quite happy making it. but now thinking of wat m i goin to do after baking the cookies... i've really no idea.
earlier on in the history of frdster, i once said tat i really wish i can get outta army soon as i remmeber the times when i was carefree (aka when i was still in sch), i wa smiling so often my dad always remind me to not smile when i cross the roads. coz my eyes r so small tat he's afraid tat i cant see the traffic. of course he's teasing me but i dun tink he can say tat anymore. me being more moody than i used to b, i club so often to forget about the world i'm in. juz hang out with some pple, some i hardly know, n dance the nite away. wat a life eh? a life of avoidance. when will i ever grow up n face the music?
hope u guys dun get bored reading my blog. tat's how i feel. pple normally uses blog or livejournal to express themselves n most of them r quite good at tat. some r quite deep. mine is juz a normal guy telling pple (who r reading this) more about my life. my tots. my tots can fly into many different diretions at one time. after reading so much, i'm sure u've already realised. paragraphs from the same blog entry need not b talking abt the same thing.
it's always said tat in the army, one will learn alot about the life we'll haf after grad from studies n come out to the "real" world n start working. yes, politics can b learnt over here. pple pull ranks, pull favours, apple polish... all kinds. must our society b like dat? would pple b happy working under u? would things progress rather than to go downhill? sometimes i'm quite sick of all this office politics and often dream tat if i were to startup a company, i would try n minimise such environment from fostering. this environment would b a very positive one where everyone is being recognised for their efforts n not their sucking-up skills.
today's mood was initially alright. but guess last nite din haf a gd sleep. wanted to forget everything by sleeping but coz i'm a light sleeper, those who came back to camp last nite made such a LOUD din tat i was awaken. earlier in the morning i told a frd i felt beta than yest but now, i'm very tired. hope tonight's KTV session can lift up my mood! even thou i mite nt b there to sing but juz wanna forget all my troubles for now!
tmr shall b cookies day yet again. hurray. i'm sure to b quite happy making it. but now thinking of wat m i goin to do after baking the cookies... i've really no idea.
earlier on in the history of frdster, i once said tat i really wish i can get outta army soon as i remmeber the times when i was carefree (aka when i was still in sch), i wa smiling so often my dad always remind me to not smile when i cross the roads. coz my eyes r so small tat he's afraid tat i cant see the traffic. of course he's teasing me but i dun tink he can say tat anymore. me being more moody than i used to b, i club so often to forget about the world i'm in. juz hang out with some pple, some i hardly know, n dance the nite away. wat a life eh? a life of avoidance. when will i ever grow up n face the music?
hope u guys dun get bored reading my blog. tat's how i feel. pple normally uses blog or livejournal to express themselves n most of them r quite good at tat. some r quite deep. mine is juz a normal guy telling pple (who r reading this) more about my life. my tots. my tots can fly into many different diretions at one time. after reading so much, i'm sure u've already realised. paragraphs from the same blog entry need not b talking abt the same thing.
Thursday, June 10, 2004
thursday today. time's so slow. nothing to look forward to in camp. nothing to look forward to outside of camp. other than sleeping in my own bed. but i guess tat luxury will b over in juz one nite. n it seems like i mite nt meet any frds to hang out (hanging out with frds is something i do so often) i guess i shld spend some quality time with myself n think thru my life. think thru my actions. think thru how to lofe a beta person.
actually this is already my 2nd attempt at writing my entry for the day. coz earlier i opened a webbie n it had some prob. camp computer is not very tahan-able. in my previous attepmt, i was talking about the things i've regretted in my life. i guess one of the things i'm also gonna tink will b to stop myself from regretting on any actions i've done coz i should think thru things b4 i execute it. wanted to talk more about the things i've regretted in my life but i dun feel like it anymore. was writing quite smoothly earlier on but lost it. haha...
i was reading my earlier posts n i saw quite a positive boy behind the post. but lately, there doesnt seem to b the case. lost the cheerfulness. lost many reasons which i can cheer about. to some extent, lost all hopes for the future. i remember when i was the the bottomless pit of sadness, i told a frd: "i've already lost all hopes for the best. when one loses all hope, wat is there left for anyone?" doesnt mean with tat msg, i'm gonna commit suicide. oh pls. i'm not into tat. furthermore i dun tink i haf the courage to do so. there's still things to look forward to. not the end of things yet. but i'm still trying to get over things. thanx for all the help, all the encouragement. i really needed it. still do.
actually this is already my 2nd attempt at writing my entry for the day. coz earlier i opened a webbie n it had some prob. camp computer is not very tahan-able. in my previous attepmt, i was talking about the things i've regretted in my life. i guess one of the things i'm also gonna tink will b to stop myself from regretting on any actions i've done coz i should think thru things b4 i execute it. wanted to talk more about the things i've regretted in my life but i dun feel like it anymore. was writing quite smoothly earlier on but lost it. haha...
i was reading my earlier posts n i saw quite a positive boy behind the post. but lately, there doesnt seem to b the case. lost the cheerfulness. lost many reasons which i can cheer about. to some extent, lost all hopes for the future. i remember when i was the the bottomless pit of sadness, i told a frd: "i've already lost all hopes for the best. when one loses all hope, wat is there left for anyone?" doesnt mean with tat msg, i'm gonna commit suicide. oh pls. i'm not into tat. furthermore i dun tink i haf the courage to do so. there's still things to look forward to. not the end of things yet. but i'm still trying to get over things. thanx for all the help, all the encouragement. i really needed it. still do.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
wednesday! halfway there. juz too bad this wk i can only leave camp on sat noon. tat's really boring already. cant wait... may life can go on faster if i start dreaming of wat i can do this wkend.
i tink i've already said in yesterday's entry tat i wanna get a new hp n meet some frds. guess no one is readin my blog since no one replied. haha. oh well so let this b my silent voice. it comes in words hence all tones n emotions can b interrepted by oneself...
gonna start learning driving soon. cant wait to start driving. oh well.. sianz man life in camp...
i tink i've already said in yesterday's entry tat i wanna get a new hp n meet some frds. guess no one is readin my blog since no one replied. haha. oh well so let this b my silent voice. it comes in words hence all tones n emotions can b interrepted by oneself...
gonna start learning driving soon. cant wait to start driving. oh well.. sianz man life in camp...
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
another wk in camp means probably another wk's worth of boring entry. i really wonders how many of u guys actually reads them? hmmm... do drop me a line n tell me u r actually doing so.
cant wait to leave camp this wk. for
1) pay is here by then
2) i wanna hang out with my frds
at least it's a change of sentiment from 2 wks back thou yesterday i felt it again. oh no! n guess y i got tat feeling back. coz i was in the gym doin some wts training n suddenly felt lousy of myself in comparison to those also training. their shoulders r like huge compared to mine. i wan those huge shoulders... so u gals can lean on n not complain it's boney. haha..
mayb with this month's pay, i wanna get a new hp with a new line, a new bag, a new pair of shoes, n some clothes (since great singapore sales is on).
another song to introduce to you guys. my frd brought me notice to this song as he thinks it's quite meaningful. it's one of the hottest song of the moment:
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
cant wait to leave camp this wk. for
1) pay is here by then
2) i wanna hang out with my frds
at least it's a change of sentiment from 2 wks back thou yesterday i felt it again. oh no! n guess y i got tat feeling back. coz i was in the gym doin some wts training n suddenly felt lousy of myself in comparison to those also training. their shoulders r like huge compared to mine. i wan those huge shoulders... so u gals can lean on n not complain it's boney. haha..
mayb with this month's pay, i wanna get a new hp with a new line, a new bag, a new pair of shoes, n some clothes (since great singapore sales is on).
another song to introduce to you guys. my frd brought me notice to this song as he thinks it's quite meaningful. it's one of the hottest song of the moment:
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Thursday, June 03, 2004
after talking to some pple, finally i know why m i feeling this way. i really haf no idea where m i heading in life. wat should i grow up to b? how bleak is my future? but most importantly, where and wat m i going to study? this is something not many would know. but yeah i still haf no idea wat m i going to do for my future. i'm at this junction where i know everything tat i'm going to do will affect my future eventually.
was tinking today.. wat m i going to do/study in the future. since if i'm going overseas, it should b easier as if i cant make it for the criteria set, i can still go for foundation yr in aussie land (home of the current beauty queen!!). was tinking to take one of the following courses :
1) accountancy (but in uni of melb, they only haf bachelor of commerce. so tat's the nearest to accountancy)
2) chemical engineering (damn diff to study in sg as criteria damn high. i'm not tat gd a student nor an average one too)
3) aviation engineering (follow the footsteps of my godma's son. he studied tat, grad with 2nd degree honours n eventually landed a job at sia n he wans to cross over to b a pilot. hope to b a pilot too. this path seems quite promising)
there r some short terms plans. like to b an air steward or work in the hotel industry. there's so many one would wanna do in this short life time. really haf no idea. but those 3 long term plans seems to b lead me to quite a promising future. wat do u guys think? oh by the way, do u tink i can b an air steward? haha. ht is not a problemo. i'm still within tat limit. haha.
oh PS: everytime i sing, pple ask me: "are u joining singapore idol?" do u tink i should? haha...
was tinking today.. wat m i going to do/study in the future. since if i'm going overseas, it should b easier as if i cant make it for the criteria set, i can still go for foundation yr in aussie land (home of the current beauty queen!!). was tinking to take one of the following courses :
1) accountancy (but in uni of melb, they only haf bachelor of commerce. so tat's the nearest to accountancy)
2) chemical engineering (damn diff to study in sg as criteria damn high. i'm not tat gd a student nor an average one too)
3) aviation engineering (follow the footsteps of my godma's son. he studied tat, grad with 2nd degree honours n eventually landed a job at sia n he wans to cross over to b a pilot. hope to b a pilot too. this path seems quite promising)
there r some short terms plans. like to b an air steward or work in the hotel industry. there's so many one would wanna do in this short life time. really haf no idea. but those 3 long term plans seems to b lead me to quite a promising future. wat do u guys think? oh by the way, do u tink i can b an air steward? haha. ht is not a problemo. i'm still within tat limit. haha.
oh PS: everytime i sing, pple ask me: "are u joining singapore idol?" do u tink i should? haha...
